Words are sometimes a problem for me now, when at one time words were part of my job, they are not as forthcoming. When you have M.E. you loose words. 'Presque vu' - 'almost seen', 'on the tip of my tongue', they float about just out of reach and it drives you potty trying to catch them, like netting gold fish darting hither and thither in a pond or if you've ever had the occasion to try to catch a tame rabbit.
One morning my eldest daughter came into the living-room with a big grey-brown rabbit she'd found hopping about in the back entry of our house. It was obviously an escapee, someone's beloved pet having made a run for freedom. I decided a box to put it in was the best option (rather than a pie!) and went to find something suitable, but by the time I returned she'd made the mistake of putting it down. Then....of course we had to catch it again! Every time we approached it under the table it would niftily evade us. It sat there there, eyeing us craftily from a distance, perfectly still. Tantalising us with it's stillness, and then at the last moment it ducked and dove or otherwise manoeuvred, all the while growling and muttering, evading capture. Until that moment I'd thought of rabbits as fluffy bunny creatures, that idea changed quickly, this was a beast, trying to bite at every juncture, spitting and screaming. At least three quarters of an hour passed, school time loomed and my patience was wearing very....very thin, eventually all was resolved when there was a knock at the front door and a neighbour stuck her head around it and called, "Anyone seen our rabbit?". Words were at my beck and call back then, so you can imagine a few choice one's were thrown towards the door that particular morning!
'We are reaching into the silence. Are we the music, whilst the music plays? Between the un-being and the being, sounds a hollow rumbling of wings... Am I here, or there, or elsewhere?' (With My apologies to T.S. Eliot)
Monday, 25 February 2013
Sunday, 3 February 2013
This is just what I've been doing since my last post.... thank goodness, unlike some people who have ME I can still manage to occupy myself with reading. Sorry to be away from here for such an inordinate length of time everyone, I have occasionally been able to at least read some of your lovely posts even if I haven't left a comment for you all. As soon as I feel I might have turned a corner again, as Arnold said in 'Terminator'...
"I'll be back!". In the meantime much love to you all.
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"I'll be back!". In the meantime much love to you all.
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